Why is everyday a struggle. Today is AJ's prek graduation. I am feeling anxious and sad.
Anxious because I have to see Tony and Yolanda together and my little ones graduation.
He is not longer the little one in daycare he'll be a kindergartener in Elementary school. The baby will grow up alot and I will miss that.
I know we are divorced and me being in a low at the moment makes for a perfect storm. I have taken precaution. I got sleep last night so I am not sleep deprived as being sleep deprived causes the mood to intensify. I have taken an extra 50mg of my meds today to ease some of the anxiety.
I am pushing on and with sheer will I will not let them effect me. I hope. I am sure I will cry today.
There are days when I wonder if I am truly bipolar or if I am just still heart broken. I think maybe I took the divorce alot harder than I thought..ok I am bipolar was just a fleeting thought.
I AM HOPING FOR A BETTER EVENING. My poor heart is tired of being heart broken.
