I loved date night today. I saw a cute little film a HFMA called Little Furniture it was so cute and witty and I just loved it. I loved that everyone was so normal in this film and it made so much more easy to relate and I found I didn't hate myself my body or my life after leaving this film. Had dinner ate like a pig and it felt good. Now I know what the lady was talking about in Eat Pray Love. I took my time ate my food enjoyed every bite of it!
Tonite I attempt to text my ex a few times never sent the text erased it and just let it be. He doesn't need to know what I am doing and how well I am. He'll contact me and when he does I will let him know I am in a good place. My ex and I have had the wierdest relationship we never really let each other go until about a few weeks ago ummm 12-26 to be exact. We had a loving relationship even as this divorce is coming around to being final .I think after that day we knew the relationship would take a turn of just exes not BFF's not lovers just two exes trying to maintain a civil relationship with one another. I'd hope it would be a loving friendship but he is very serious with his new girlfriend and very affraid of messing things up that I decided I wouldn't be a friend that had to be hidden if he wanted me as friend then he'd have to treat me like a real friend after 12-26 i think we both knew it was time to move on...one last time for old time sake and it felt horrible there wasn't anything left no more feelings of passion or love. Anyway
I am looking forward to my new journey. On a side note I was hit on by an Australian guy at the film but I was much too worried about getting dinner than entertaining him. He was a cutie but I am just not into meeting any men right now. I have alot of healing to do and alot things to focus on MEN not on that list.
